:05:00
otherwise b y y our own
adm iss io n y ou'd be a hypocrite.
:05:02
I'm not a hypocrite.
:05:04
N o, no.
I, I k now.
:05:05
That's what I'm strugg I i ng with,
because without y ou bei ng ...
:05:07
a hypocrite y our
argument makes no sense.
:05:09
Ken nedy was n't a
parano id s ch izop hren ic.
:05:11
O h, N ix o n is a parano id
s ch izop hren ic.
:05:15
I th i nk s o.
:05:16
- So th is is an expert op i n io n.
- Expert?
:05:18
Well, yeah.
:05:19
I mean that's a rather
s op h isticated ps y cho log ical term;
:05:22
parano id s ch izop hren ic.
:05:24
So I was wo nderi ng if, if y ou
have any experience i n the field.
:05:28
A psych iatric degree that
qualifies y ou to mak e...
:05:31
such a co nclus ive d iag nos is
o n a man y ou've never met.
:05:35
N o.
:05:36
Maybe y ou th i nk because y ou
have a few emotio nal prob lems ...
:05:38
of y our own it makes y ou s ort
of an ho norary doctor of the stuff.
:05:45
D is cuss io n o ver.
Potatoes p lease.
:05:53
You k now, I wi I I g ive y ou o ne
p iece of adv ice v ia another...
:05:57
great American pres ident;
Abraham Li nco I n,
:05:59
who said: "I wou Id rather s it
qu ietly and have them th i nk...
:06:03
I hav e noth i ng i n telligen t to
say rather than open my mouth...
:06:07
and remo ve al I doubt.
:06:11
I got shot down,
but it was worth it,
:06:13
'cause it jarred someth i ng.
:06:15
Later that nigh t,
I had an epiphany:
:06:17
For the first time i n my life,
I realized I was gay.
:06:21
Not just confused, or goi ng
through a phase but actually gay.
:06:24
That nigh t I came out
of the closet to myself.
:06:28
But th is only
made th i ngs worse.
:06:30
I was anx iety-ridden
out of my mi nd.
:06:32
I needed to talk to someone.
:06:34
But there was no one i n
my family I cou Id go to.
:06:37
I didn 't hav e any
friends i n h igh school.
:06:39
H igh school.
:06:41
Fi nally i n my desperation
I ended up down town...
:06:44
at social serv ices where I met
with a part-time social work er...
:06:47
with a few issues of h is own.
:06:49
You m i nd if I dri nk?
:06:50
U h, no.
:06:51
We're not, y ou k now,
real ly supposed to dri nk.
:06:53
Lo ok if y ou're hav i ng
a bad day, I ...
:06:55
I am hav i ng a bad day,
because th is morn i ng ...
:06:58
my g irlfriend and
I of two years ...sp I it.