1:06:00
longer than l've
wanted anything.
1:06:02
l've been after
that Head of Year job
1:06:04
for about two weeks.
1:06:06
You think l'd care
about that more?
1:06:08
No, you care more about one team
1:06:10
scoring more than another.
1:06:12
You thought l came
to comfort you about that?
1:06:15
For a moment, yeah.
1:06:16
l credited you with imagination.
1:06:18
Thought you might understand.
1:06:20
lt's only a game.
1:06:22
DON'T SAY THAT!
1:06:23
Please! That is the worst,
1:06:25
most stupid thing
anyone could say!
1:06:28
lt quite clearly
isn't only a game.
1:06:31
lf it was, d'you honestly
think l'd care this much?
1:06:35
Eh?
1:06:36
1 8 years!
1:06:37
1 8...years!
1:06:39
D'you know what you wanted
1:06:41
1 8 years ago?
1:06:42
Or ten? Or five?
1:06:43
Did you wanna be Head of Year
1:06:45
at a North London comprehensive?
1:06:47
l doubt if you've wanted
anything for that long.
1:06:51
And if you had,
1:06:52
and if you'd spent three months
1:06:54
thinking that finally
you were gonna get it
1:06:57
and just when
you think it's there,
1:07:00
it's taken away from you!
1:07:02
l don't care what it is -
1:07:04
a car, a job, an Oscar.
1:07:07
The baby.
1:07:08
Then you'd understand
1:07:10
how l was feeling tonight.
1:07:12
But there isn't
and you don't, so...
1:07:17
So what? So...fuck off?
1:07:19
Go home? Leave you alone?
1:07:21
Whatever.
1:07:22
There isn't anything
l've wanted for 1 8 years
1:07:25
because l was a kid
1:07:27
lf l did still want the same
things, l'd have gone wrong.
1:07:31
l don't want
to marry David Cassidy,
1:07:34
have bigger tits,
1:07:36
do well in my mock 'O's.
1:07:37
l've stopped worrying
about all that.
1:07:40
Maybe there's a big bit
of you that's gone missing.
1:07:43
Maybe everyone
should want something
1:07:45
they've always wanted.
1:07:50
l don't know
what l've been thinking of.
1:07:54
How d'you mean?
1:07:55
We've both been pretending
that this is possible
1:07:58
and it's not, is it?