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I know.
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Can you imagine what is fell like to
have someone sit you down...
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- John Cramer?
.. and tell you that you are dying?
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The gravity of that?
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That the clock is ticking for you.
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In one second, the world
is crack open.
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You look at things differently,
you smell things differently.
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You savor everything, either a glass of
water or a walk in the park.
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The clock is ticking, John.
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Most people have the luxury
not knowing when that clock will go off.
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And the irony of that is that keeps
for really living their lives.
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It keep them drinking that glass
of water but not really tasting it.
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You can still fix that, John.
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Yeah, but you can fix you?
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I'm not fixable.
I have cancer.
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You think that the cancer is
an excuse for what you done?
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No.
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The cancer is all what
started me and my work.
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It was the moment I decided
to end my life,
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and start a new with my work.
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That brought meaning to it.
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I literally, driving myself
to suicide. I failed.
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My body is not strong enough
to fight cancerous cells.
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Than I have lived for a plundge of ...
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And for my amazement,
I was alive.
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And I was determined to spend
the rest of my days
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testing the fabric of
human nature.