:09:09
That isn't me.
:09:13
Don't be ridiculous.
:09:16
- It isn't me.
- No, that is you.
:09:19
And I know, because I drive you home,
:09:21
and I look at you through the binoculars,
and everything else that I shouldn't do.
:09:30
It was once.
:09:34
It's not any more.
:09:37
After the rallies,
after my parents and sister were killed,
:09:42
then the rifles came out.
:09:46
It was the only way to get anyone to listen.
Just to listen.
:09:54
I killed a boy who had nothing to live for
beyond the money he'd get for killing me.
:10:01
I shot him in the head
so he wouldn't shoot me.
:10:09
Then I handed the rifle to my brother
and told him, "I'm through. "
:10:13
I walked away with him shouting at me,
"You're a coward. "
:10:18
"Our parents are dead, Zuwanie's alive. "
:10:23
My brother,
who in another life wouldn't harm a...
:10:31
That was the last thing he ever said to me.
:10:34
The only contact I have is the notebooks
I send and imagine him receiving.
:10:39
I know he's alive. I know it.
:10:43
But I'm not to him.
:10:49
I lied to you because I was afraid.
:10:53
I was afraid
he might be involved in what I heard.
:10:59
I lied to everyone else
so they'd let me near the UN,