1:34:00
She always woke up starving
after one of her episodes.
1:34:03
l was just sitting in the kitchen
doing my homework...
1:34:06
...and she just walked in...
1:34:09
...and just started making this thing.
1:34:11
You know, l don't even know
if you could call it a pizza.
1:34:14
lt was more like the entire contents
of our refrigerator on a round crust.
1:34:20
Craziest part is we actually ate it.
1:34:23
Of course you did.
1:34:24
We ate every single bit of that pizza
in like 1 0 minutes.
1:34:28
Yeah.
1:34:29
And we were laughing the whole time.
1:34:32
lt was great.
1:34:34
l remember thinking that maybe
there won't be any more bad spells.
1:34:38
Maybe she'll just be
happy like this forever.
1:34:45
lt's okay to miss her, Bee.
1:34:48
l mean, as hard as it is
to be sad about it...
1:34:50
...don't you think maybe
it's harder not to be?
1:34:53
You don't understand.
1:34:59
Bridge....
1:35:01
l can't.
1:35:04
lt hurts too much.
1:35:06
-l know.
-No, you don't know.
1:35:09
l just want to feel good
and happy and alive.
1:35:14
Because...
1:35:16
...if l feel alive...
1:35:19
...then it doesn't seem like she's dead.
1:35:23
And if l'm not sad...
1:35:27
...then it proves that l'm not like her.
1:35:30
Bee, you don't have
to prove that to anybody.
1:35:34
l mean, you have a strength in you
that your mom never had.
1:35:38
As much as she wanted to,
she couldn't find it.
1:35:44
Yeah, and you have something else too.
1:35:47
What?
1:35:51
You have us.
1:35:55
And we're not gonna
let you go anywhere, okay?
1:35:58
Thank you.