1:03:05
I let him down.
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When he called that night...
1:03:13
...I couldn't make sense out of....
1:03:16
But there was one thing that was sure.
1:03:21
Skipper was scared.
1:03:23
Scared...
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...about what happened that day
on the football field.
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That I'd blame him.
1:03:30
Scared that I'd walk out on him.
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Skipper afraid! I couldn't believe that.
1:03:38
I mean, inside he was real
deep-down scared...
1:03:42
...and he broke like a rotten stick.
1:03:46
He started crying:
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''I need you.''
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He kept babbling, ''Help me.''
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Me help him?
1:03:58
How does one drowning man...
1:04:01
...help another drowning man?
1:04:03
So you hung up on him.
1:04:06
And then that phone...
1:04:09
...started to ring again.
1:04:12
It rang and it rang
and it wouldn't stop ringing.
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And I lay in that hospital bed,
unable to move or run from that sound.
1:04:21
It kept ringing louder and louder.
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And the sound of that
was like Skipper screaming for help.
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And I couldn't pick it up.
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So that's when he killed himself?
1:04:42
Yes.
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Because I let him down.
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So that disgust with mendacity
is really disgust with myself.
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When I hear that click I don't hear
the sound of that phone ringing anymore.