1:05:00
When you saw it was irreversible,
you started to hate the baby.
1:05:04
And you wished it would be stillborn.
1:05:10
You wished the baby would be dead.
1:05:15
You wished for a dead baby.
1:05:22
lt was a difficult and long delivery.
1:05:25
You were in agony for days. Finally
the baby was delivered with forceps.
1:05:31
You looked with disgust and terror
at your squealing baby and whispered:
1:05:36
''Can't you die soon? Can't you die?''
1:05:41
But he survived.
1:05:44
The boy screamed day and night.
1:05:49
And you hated him. You were scared,
you had a bad conscience.
1:05:58
Finally the boy was taken care of
by relatives and a nanny.
1:06:02
You could get up from your sickbed
and return to the theatre.
1:06:08
But the suffering wasn't over.
1:06:12
The boy was gripped by a massive
and unfathomable love for his mother.
1:06:17
You defend yourself.
You defend yourself in despair.
1:06:22
You feel you can't return it.
So you try, and you try...
1:06:28
But there are only cruel and clumsy
meetings between you.
1:06:32
You can't do it.
You're cold and indifferent.
1:06:37
He looks at you.
He loves you and he's so gentle.
1:06:42
You want to hit him
because he doesn't leave you alone.
1:06:46
You think he's disgusting
with his thick mouth and ugly body.
1:06:50
His moist and pleading eyes.
He's disgusting and you're scared.
1:06:59
What are you hiding
under your hand? Let me see.