:40:00
It's dreary. Hold on, I put on the light.
:40:04
Elis is not jealous or anything. Or maybe he is.
:40:10
He's going to Milano. It's a very honourable commission, even though he jokes about it.
:40:16
He's successfull.
:40:18
For all eternity. Amen.
:41:03
It's so hard when you one day realize that you're useless, that no one needs you-
:41:13
-even though you're ready to give of yourself.
:41:19
It's my own fault I guess. But it's paralyzing me.
:41:26
I want to do so many things. I make up so many plans.
:41:31
But then Elis says; "Don't do it like this. Don't do it like that. Do it this way."-
:41:39
-and everything come to nothing.
:41:43
No! I'm not going to blame it on Elis.
:41:58
Everything goes wrong for me. And Elis.. No I won't.. I won't blame Elis.