1:21:00
Do you understand what I mean?
1:21:01
I understand very well, Andreas.
1:21:06
I'm off this road. But I've put myself there.
1:21:13
-Finally, you're so far away.
-I understand. I understand how strange it is..
1:21:21
Yes, it's strange.
1:21:24
I wish I could be warm and tender and living.
1:21:29
I want to start all over.
1:21:32
-The loneliness..
-It's like when you're dreaming. You want to move..
1:21:37
You know how to do it, but you can't. The legs are stuck and your arms are heavy as led.
1:21:43
-You want to speak, but can't.
-I'm so afraid of being humiliated.
1:21:48
It's an eternal suffering. I've recieved humiliation and it's stuck inside of me.
1:21:56
Do you understand what I mean?
1:21:58
I understand.
1:22:01
It's such a horrible thing to be a failure.
1:22:05
Everyone thinks they have a right to decide over you.
1:22:08
Their considerate despise.
1:22:13
That sudden desire to step on something that's alive.
1:22:17
I understand, Andreas. You don't have to..
1:22:19
I'm dead, Anna. Or no.. I'm not dead.
1:22:22
That's not true. Melodramatic. I'm not dead at all.
1:22:29
But I'm living without any self-respect.
1:22:33
I know it sounds silly, perhaps pretentious-
1:22:36
-because the majority of the people are forced to live without any sense of dignity.
1:22:42
Humiliated at the foundation, halfchoked and spitted at.
1:22:46
They just keep on living, they don't know anything else.
1:22:50
They don't know any alternatives.
1:22:52
Even if they knew, they wouldn't reach for it.
1:22:59
Can humiliation make you sick?