1:22:01
It's such a horrible thing to be a failure.
1:22:05
Everyone thinks they have a right to decide over you.
1:22:08
Their considerate despise.
1:22:13
That sudden desire to step on something that's alive.
1:22:17
I understand, Andreas. You don't have to..
1:22:19
I'm dead, Anna. Or no.. I'm not dead.
1:22:22
That's not true. Melodramatic. I'm not dead at all.
1:22:29
But I'm living without any self-respect.
1:22:33
I know it sounds silly, perhaps pretentious-
1:22:36
-because the majority of the people are forced to live without any sense of dignity.
1:22:42
Humiliated at the foundation, halfchoked and spitted at.
1:22:46
They just keep on living, they don't know anything else.
1:22:50
They don't know any alternatives.
1:22:52
Even if they knew, they wouldn't reach for it.
1:22:59
Can humiliation make you sick?
1:23:03
Or is it a sicknes we all are infected by and are forced to live with?
1:23:09
There's so much talk about "Liberty".
1:23:12
Tell me, isn't liberty a terrible poison for the humiliated?
1:23:16
Or perhaps the word "Liberty" is just a drug that the humiliated has to take to endure?
1:23:26
I can't live with this anymore. I've given up.
1:23:33
Sometimes, it's unbearable. The days keep dragging their feet.
1:23:37
I should be choked by the food I eat, the shit I produce, the words I say.
1:23:42
The daylight that comes every morning, yelling at me, ordering me to get up.
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Or the sleep, that has dreams that chase me back and forth.
1:23:50
Or the darkness, haunted by ghosts and memories.
1:23:55
I've been thinking, Anna. For humans; The worse their condition, the lesser they complain.