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because I hated
what was my own.
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It was horrible, Mama!
I still shake all over
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when I think of those years.
It was horrible.
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I didn't realize I hated you as I
was quite sure we loved each other.
1:03:28
I couldn't hate you, so my hatred
turned into an insane fear.
1:03:33
I had nightmares.
1:03:36
I bit my nails.
1:03:40
I pulled out tufts of hair.
1:03:43
I tried to scream but could
only make stifled grunts.
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That frightened me even more
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as I thought I was
going out of my mind.
1:04:07
Then came Stefan.
-And made you pregnant.
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I was 18. Stefan was grown-up.
We could have managed.
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-No!
-We wanted to have the child
butyou spoiled everything.
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That's not true!
I said to Papa
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we should wait and see. You didn't
realize Stefan was an idiot.
1:04:29
Were you present at our discussions?
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Were you lurking under our bed?
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Have you ever given a damn about
any living soul except yourself?
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I didn't force you into an abortion.
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How could I defy you?
I was afraid and needed help.
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I tried to help you.
I thought abortion was the only way.
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I've thought so all along.
All this hatred!