1:18:04
l gave birth to him and raised him.
He's a part of my life.
1:18:09
You don't have any children. You
don't understand a mother's feelings.
1:18:16
The responsibility...
1:18:20
the guilt...
1:18:22
the shame.
-You're right. l don't understand.
1:18:26
l'm sorry. l didn't mean to hurt you.
-You didn't hurt me.
1:18:31
l feel sorry for you.
-l don't believe that.
1:18:35
l've been here for half an hour. All
you've talked about is your feelings.
1:18:40
Your problems,
your guilt, your shame.
1:18:43
Forgive me, Katarina. l thought you'd
come here so that we could talk.
1:18:49
l thought we could talk...
1:18:52
about our feelings.
1:18:55
l don't know what l thought we'd do.
-l also thought of you.
1:19:00
Every hour of the day
l thought of you.
1:19:03
l am also lonely.
1:19:07
Yes.
1:19:09
Full of astonishment
l look back on our lives...
1:19:13
on our former reality
and think it was all a dream.
1:19:18
lt was a game. Lord knows
what the hell we were doing.
1:19:24
This is true reality,
and it's unbearable.
1:19:27
l talk, answer, think,
put on my clothes...
1:19:31
sleep and eat. lt's a daily
compulsion. A strange, hard surface.
1:19:37
But under that surface, l'm crying.
1:19:42
l'm crying for myself...
1:19:47
because l can no longer be
the way l was.
1:19:52
What was, can never be again.
lt's been destroyed. lt's gone...
1:19:57
like a dream.