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I meant in terms of Conrad.
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I knew something was wrong...
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even before he tried suicide.
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But I thought that...
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It's clear that he's very smart.
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He's always been
an "A" student.
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Naturally. I thought
intelligent people...
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could work out their problems.
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But you still feel responsible?
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Yeah, sure I do.
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It's hard not to.
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It was just luck that
I happened to be there...
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when he tried it.
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We both could've been away.
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You think of yourself
as a lucky man?
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No. No. No.
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I used to think that
I was a lucky person...
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before the accident.
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I guess the whole of life...
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is nothing but an accident...
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what happens to you.
1:13:02
That sounds like
the philosophy of a drifter.
1:13:04
Yeah. Maybe.
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Maybe I am drifting a little.
1:13:09
I can see the two of them...
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drifting away from me...
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and I just stand watching.
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What would you want
to do about that?
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Something.
I don't know what.
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I feel like
I'm sitting on a fence.
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They're on opposite sides
of this fence?
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Yeah... No.
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I don't know.
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I see her not being able
to forgive him.
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For what?
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I don't know exactly.
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Being too much like her.
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People always think that
she and Buck are... were alike.
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But it's really she and Conrad.
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They were the only two...
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that didn't cry at the funeral.
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It's not easy for me to admit this...