1:17:03
You've had it too easy
and you don't know it.
1:17:07
No, no. l do know it.
1:17:09
You're not gonna get
a lot of sympathy.
1:17:12
People would give their right arm
to lead the kind of life you lead.
1:17:17
l know, but the trouble is,
l can't feel my life.
1:17:22
l can't feel it. l see it all
around me and l know...
1:17:27
...that so much of it is good.
1:17:29
But l just take it the wrong way.
lt's like this thing...
1:17:34
...with my mother. l know she does
all this stuff because she loves me...
1:17:39
...but l just can't believe it.
1:17:44
And other stuff.
1:17:47
l don't know about your mother.
1:17:49
Maybe she'll stop mothering you
when you grow up.
1:17:53
-You don't know my mother.
-l don't.
1:17:55
l know you can make
a mother out of anybody.
1:17:58
Look, your mother did it to you,
and her mother did it to her...
1:18:02
...and back all the way to Eve.
1:18:04
At some point, you stop it and say:
1:18:07
'' Fuck it. l start with me.''
1:18:10
Did you just make that up?
1:18:14
l was working on it before you came.
lf you were half an hour later...
1:18:18
...it would have been better.
1:18:20
lt's pretty good as it is.
1:18:22
lt sounds like movie dialogue.
1:18:24
That's me. l don't want life to
imitate art, l want life to be art.
1:18:33
Look.
1:18:35
Look at that.
1:18:37
See what you can do?
1:18:39
You weren't even conscious then,
for chrissake.
1:18:42
lmagine what you could do now.
1:18:45
Maybe l should just...
1:18:48
...go back to the clinic?
1:18:53
Growing up isn't like in a movie...
1:18:55
...where you have a realization
and life changes.
1:18:58
ln life, you have a realization and
your life changes a month or so later.