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- Why are you looking at me like that?
- Like what?
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Why do you always follow me?
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Why do you always follow me
when I do something wrong?
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Why can't you follow me
when I do something right?
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- What are you talking about?
- What am I talking about?
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- I'm talking about the medal.
- What medal?
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What fucking medal?
What fucking medal?
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The only fucking medal that was ever
in our house. That fucking medal.
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The medal I won at football.
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And you sat on the sidelines
shouting instructions...
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like you could only see
what I was doing--
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you couldn't even
fucking play football--
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and you could only see
what I was doing wrong.
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I could never do anything
good enough foryou.
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And after the game,
you came up to me and said...
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"Gerry, did you foul the ball?"
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And I walked away from you, remember?
I walked away into the dressing room.
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You followed me in there and said again,
"Gerry, did you foul the ball?"
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All the other fathers were in there
laughing at you...
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calling you "Poor Giuseppe."
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And I ran out, and I hid,
and I wrote your name on the ground--
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your stupid Giuseppe fucking name--
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I wrote it in the dirt,
and I fucking pissed on it!
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I pissed on it...
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because I did foul the ball.
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What did it matter? We won.
For once in our lives, we won.
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You ruined that medal for me! I took it
to the pawn, and they laughed at me.
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- They wouldn't give me 50 pence for it.
- This is shock.
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And that's when I started to rob,
to prove that I was no good.
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- Delayed shock.
- Never mind delayed shock.
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I've been like this
since I was seven.
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I remember Mammy said to me,
"Don't upset Giuseppe. He's not well."
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Oh, dear Lord, he's not well.
So we'd tiptoe around the house.
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Like this, tiptoeing around the house.
"Not well, you know. He's not well."
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Then I got Holy Communion.
I thought I was eating you alive.
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Is it my fault you weren't well?
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Why did you have to be sick
all your life, Giuseppe?
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What'd you have to be sick
all your life for?
:44:52
When that mad bastard out there
threatened to shoot you, I was happy.
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I swear to God.
Honest to God, I was happy.
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I was delighted! You know why?
Because finally it was all over.