:42:04
Ha ha! don't believe any of it.
:42:06
I never did anything
so "heroic" in my life.
:42:10
I keep reminding my
self to tell the truth.
:42:12
But no matter how I try,
:42:15
something keeps interfering.
:42:18
and the facts slip away.
:42:23
My memory plays with and betrays me.
:42:28
I don't know what the truth is myself.
:42:31
I even suspect I didn't meet
Mi Lan for the first time...
:42:35
on the street but when she visited.
:42:37
That afternoon, Liu Yiku asked
her over, and Big Ant and I...
:42:40
waited at the gate for her...
:42:41
that's the first time we met...
:42:44
and that's why Big Ant
and I played Vasily.
:42:47
and didn't talk a lot to her.
:42:49
I hardly knew her.
:42:52
In fact, I never really knew her.
:42:55
Heavens!
:42:57
Is Mi Lan the girl in the photograph?
:43:00
And whatever happened to Yu Beipei?
:43:04
Maybe...
:43:06
she and Mi Lan were the same person?
:43:10
I really don't dare think about it.
:43:13
I started telling this
story in all sincerity and...
:43:15
then forced it to turn into a lie.
:43:18
Is that a reason to give it up?
:43:20
No, no.
:43:21
and you wouldn't want me to, either...
:43:27
How hard it is to keep your promises!
:43:29
True honesty is impossible.
:43:34
Listen,
:43:37
sometimes a sound or a smell...
:43:40
takes you right back to the past.
:43:58
My head is as clear as the moon.