:00:37
From the start it was good.
In the beginning, it was really good.
:00:42
When it first started, we...
:00:44
First started seeing each other,
going out together...
:00:48
...just the two of us, doing things.
:00:50
Well, it always is.
:00:54
- Isn't it always that way?
- Isn't it?
:00:58
- Christ. The energy we had.
- The fun we had.
:01:02
The times we spent.
:01:04
- Doing nothing sometimes.
- Doing everything.
:01:07
- It didn't matter what we did.
- Anything.
:01:09
- It was just so good.
- It was like a drug.
:01:13
Every day, whatever I was doing,
the whole world was beautiful.
:01:17
Everything that didn't make sense
before, all of a sudden...
:01:22
It was being alive again.
:01:24
It was like I'd been dead,
and now I was alive again.
:01:28
Hope, I guess. That's what it was.
:01:32
Belief.
:01:34
Believing in everything
again, you know?
:01:38
I liked the way I looked.
I stopped checking the scale.
:01:42
- I stopped smoking. I stopped smoking.
- I stopped punishing myself.
:01:47
- I felt good about myself.
- I felt like I could do anything.
:01:53
I used to get so excited
I would shake.
:01:55
Every time I knew
I was going to see him...
:01:59
...there was, like, this electricity
coming out of me.