1:40:02
I'll be there. And when it's over we'll
be the strongest we've ever been...
1:40:06
'cause we'll have been
through this together.
1:40:08
Then we'll be on the same level and
there'll be nothing we can't accomplish.
1:40:12
Oh, Holden.
1:40:17
That time is over for me.
1:40:20
I've been there
and I've done it...
1:40:22
and I didn't find
what I was looking for in any of it.
1:40:26
I found that it you.
In us.
1:40:30
Doing this won't help you forget
about the things you're hung up on.
1:40:33
- It'll create more.
- No. I've thought about all that.
1:40:38
Yes, it will !
1:40:44
Maybe you'll see me
differently from then on.
1:40:48
Maybe you'll despise me for going along
with it once you're in the moment.
1:40:53
Maybe I'll moan differently,
1:40:55
and then you'll resent Banky
and become suspicious of us.
1:40:59
Or you'll alienate him
because of it.
1:41:02
You'll grow to blame and hate me for
the deterioration of your friendship.
1:41:08
Or what if-- and God,
I sincerely doubt it--
1:41:11
but what if I saw something
in Banky that I've never seen before,
1:41:16
you know, and I fell in love
with him and left you ?
1:41:21
I've been down roads
like this before.
1:41:25
Many times.
1:41:30
I know you feel doing this
will broaden your horizons...
1:41:35
and give you experience.
1:41:38
But I've had
those experiences, on my own.
1:41:43
And I can't accompany you
on yours.
1:41:46
I'm past that now.
1:41:55
Or maybe I just love you
too much.
1:41:58
And I feel hurt and let down that you
would want to share me with anyone.