:50:01
so I was talking to her a lot,
and told her all about Bob,
:50:03
and how I'd really like to meet him.
:50:05
Not thinking anything--
I just said it.
:50:07
And then when I was in the hospital,
:50:09
she approached me and she said,
:50:11
"If you still
really want to meet this guy,
:50:13
we can go through The Wish Foundation."
:50:15
I was dreading it.
I was telling everybody--
:50:17
"And we're going to LA.
:50:19
We're going to see this man who has CF.
:50:21
And I'm so worried about Sara,
because if she sees him, then--"
:50:24
And I guess I worried
that she might be disappointed.
:50:54
What is your involvement
with their kind of sexuality?
:50:58
That's a really tough question.
:51:01
I don't know,
because like I said before...
:51:05
bondage is, to me, that's--
I don't know what you'd call it,
:51:09
but I can relate to that.
:51:12
I guess-- it's the same thing,
I think, with Bob--
:51:15
being able
to control your body for a change,
:51:17
and being able to control something.
:51:20
But it wasn't the S & M that...
:51:22
- It certainly was part of it.
- ...attracted her.
:51:24
Because it does interest me.
:51:28
And I'll go out of the house
:51:30
with collars wrapped
around my neck and stuff,
:51:31
but not to the extreme.
:51:33
But it certainly attracted me,
because, you know,
:51:36
you don't hear about people
with diseases being like that.
:51:39
You always think of them
being sick and feeble
:51:41
and they don't really do anything.
:51:42
I keep telling everybody,
and everyone will say,
:51:44
"Oh, I can see--
you're going to outlive us all. "
:51:47
And I keep saying, "No, I'm not."
:51:49
I'm like, "Once I'm 25,
I'm not going to be around."
:51:52
And I believed that
and I almost wanted it,
:51:54
'cause what can you do after 25?
:51:56
I mean, that's a long time!
:51:58
To me, I couldn't think that far.