:51:01
I don't know,
because like I said before...
:51:05
bondage is, to me, that's--
I don't know what you'd call it,
:51:09
but I can relate to that.
:51:12
I guess-- it's the same thing,
I think, with Bob--
:51:15
being able
to control your body for a change,
:51:17
and being able to control something.
:51:20
But it wasn't the S & M that...
:51:22
- It certainly was part of it.
- ...attracted her.
:51:24
Because it does interest me.
:51:28
And I'll go out of the house
:51:30
with collars wrapped
around my neck and stuff,
:51:31
but not to the extreme.
:51:33
But it certainly attracted me,
because, you know,
:51:36
you don't hear about people
with diseases being like that.
:51:39
You always think of them
being sick and feeble
:51:41
and they don't really do anything.
:51:42
I keep telling everybody,
and everyone will say,
:51:44
"Oh, I can see--
you're going to outlive us all. "
:51:47
And I keep saying, "No, I'm not."
:51:49
I'm like, "Once I'm 25,
I'm not going to be around."
:51:52
And I believed that
and I almost wanted it,
:51:54
'cause what can you do after 25?
:51:56
I mean, that's a long time!
:51:58
To me, I couldn't think that far.
:52:00
But now, especially seeing
:52:03
everything
that Bob and Sheree have done,
:52:05
now I'm looking more towards--
I want to go into journalism.
:52:08
And I want to write--
:52:11
not just about CF,
but I want definitely to get more known.
:52:15
Death's never bothered me, really.
:52:18
There will be days
I'm always thinking about it.
:52:21
And then I can go on and on
and never think about it.
:52:24
But despite what everybody says,
I know it's gonna kill me.
:52:28
Everyone says,
"Well, you could die in a car accident."
:52:30
Yeah, but you don't think
about that every day.
:52:32
This is my life.
This will kill me eventually.
:52:35
And I know that.
A lot of people think it's morbid,
:52:37
but I deal with it.
It's no big deal to me.
:52:39
It doesn't depress me.
That's what I'm here for.
:52:42
I'm here,
I live to show people what's going on,
:52:46
and then showing them
that my life is about death.
:52:50
And, I guess, to reverse it,
:52:52
my death will be about life as well,
:52:54
because of how I'm dying.
:52:58
Pretty self-assured for 17.