1:17:03
Whatever you do,
please don't say anything.
1:17:06
Don't be clever, don't be smart,
'cause I can't take it tonight.
1:17:12
Sit on that.
1:17:15
The tiles are always
so cold in this bathroom.
1:17:21
Everything's so wrong
without Bill.
1:17:26
I know.
I miss him so much.
1:17:29
He used to call me "baby."
1:17:31
I never thought I'd like that,
but I did... with him.
1:17:37
Sure, you do.
1:17:40
I miss his hands.
1:17:43
I miss the way he would put them
on the small of my back...
1:17:49
and lead me into a room.
1:17:52
It made me feel so safe.
1:17:56
I miss all that.
1:17:58
- Of course you do.
- Uh-huh.
1:18:01
You know, it's so easy to
believe him, but you know what?
1:18:07
I think it's me.
I do, because...
1:18:12
He used to look at me,
and I'd see myself in his eyes,
1:18:16
and it was like he saw me.
1:18:19
And I was audacious, Mama.
I was. And then...
1:18:26
Things started to change.
1:18:28
The harder I'd try to be
what he wanted me to be,
1:18:32
the less I saw myself
in his eyes.
1:18:35
One day I looked,
and I was gone.
1:18:42
- I still see her.
- No, Mama, no.
1:18:45
No, it's happening
with Bernice, too.
1:18:47
It's happening with Bernice.
1:18:50
She doesn't look at me
the same way.
1:18:53
It's like there's
a wall between us.
1:18:56
There's a wall,
and it's killing me,
1:18:59
'cause the one thing I said
when I grow up,