1:35:01
But I know what it's like
to wanna die.
1:35:09
How it hurts to smile.
1:35:13
How you try to fit in,
but you can't.
1:35:18
How you hurt yourself
on the outside...
1:35:22
to try to kill the thing
on the inside.
1:35:27
Susanna, it's all well and good
to tell me all this.
1:35:32
But you've got to tell
some of this to your doctors.
1:35:42
How am I supposed to recover...
1:35:44
when I don't even
understand my disease?
1:35:48
But you do understand it.
1:35:50
You spoke very clearly
about it a second ago.
1:35:55
But I think what you've got
to do is put it down.
1:35:58
Put it away.
Put it in your notebook.
1:36:00
But get it out of yourself.
1:36:03
Away, so you can't
curl up with it anymore.
1:36:13
Lisa thinks it's a gift.
1:36:18
That it lets you see the truth.
1:36:24
Lisa's been here for eight years.
1:36:35
I'm so sorry.
1:36:37
- I was a pig.
- It's all right. Listen.
1:36:43
Do not drop anchor here.
1:36:46
Understand?