:46:09
I'm sorry, Ethan.
:46:13
I don't know if you can hear me,
but this is my last day, so...
:46:22
I put Dacks up on charges.
:46:25
I still might be able to get you
that hearing, if you would just speak.
:46:29
If you would just come back.
:46:35
Okay, Ethan.
:46:48
You asked me
a question once.
:46:49
"What has you
all tied up in knots...
:46:52
when you wake up sweating
in the middle of the night?"
:46:54
You still wanna know?
:46:57
I've been thinking about it.
I've been thinking about it a lot.
:47:01
It's not the work.
I love the work.
:47:04
I've always loved the work.
:47:08
It's the game.
:47:11
The game, Ethan.
:47:13
And I was so good at it.
:47:16
I made sure all
the right people liked me.
:47:20
At night, I'd do
the checklist in my mind.
:47:23
Am I cool with Ben Hillard?
:47:25
Am I cool with Dr. Josephson?
:47:27
Am I cool with all the people
who can help me?
:47:29
Am I cool with all the people
who can hurt me?
:47:33
Nobody thought I was weak
or a loser.
:47:37
There was nobody
I was offending,
:47:41
nobody I loved.
:47:48
That game, Ethan.
:47:53
But guess what?
:47:57
You taught me how
to live outside of the game.