:29:01
And you all know
what that feeling is.
:29:04
Wh en yourskin is screaming...
:29:07
...and yourhands are shaking...
:29:11
...and yourstomach feels like
it wants tojump...
:29:14
...thro ugh your throat.
:29:16
And you know that
ifanyone had a clue...
:29:20
...how wrong it felt to be sober. ..
:29:22
...th ey wouldn't dream
ofasking you to stay that way.
:29:26
Th ey would say, "Oh,jeez,
I didn't know. Here.
:29:30
It's okay foryou.
Yo u do that mound of cocaine.
:29:34
Have a drink. Have 20 drinks.
:29:37
Whateveryou need to do to feel...
:29:41
...like a normal human being...
:29:43
...you do it. "
:29:44
And, boy, I did it.
:29:47
I drank, and I snorted...
:29:50
...and I drank and snorted
and drank and snorted.
:29:53
And I did this day after day
afternight afternight.
:29:56
I didn't care about th e consequences.
:29:59
Because I knew that th ey couldn't be
halfas bad as not using.
:30:07
Oh, God!
:30:09
And then one night
something happened.
:30:12
You know you're screwed.
:30:25
I woke up.
:30:28
I woke up on a sidewalk.
:30:31
I had no idea where I was. I couldn't
have told you the city I was in.
:30:36
My head was pounding...
:30:37
...and I looked down
and my shirt is covered in blood.
:30:42
And as I'm lying th ere,
wondering what happens next. ..
:30:47
...l heard a voice.
:30:48
And it said:
:30:50
"Man, this is not a way to live.
:30:56
This is a way to die."