:35:01
Quite frankIy,
I wanted to Iash out at somebody.
:35:05
Not Matthew, pIease understand that.
Not one of us was mad at Matthew.
:35:10
We maybe wanted to squeeze
McKinney's head off.
:35:14
And I think about Henderson....
:35:17
You know, two absoIuteIy...
:35:21
...human beings caused so much grief
for so many peopIe.
:35:26
They wanna start me
on these AZT drugs immediateIy.
:35:29
If you...
:35:32
...if you start them within 36 hours...
:35:34
...maybe that can stop you
from getting the disease.
:35:39
This has been just terribIe
for my whoIe famiIy...
:35:41
...but mostIy for her and her kids.
:35:44
Those drugs, the AZT drugs.
:35:48
She throws up every day.
:35:51
She cries so much,
she's afraid to touch her Kids.
:35:55
I just hope she doesn't go before me.
:36:22
No matter how you dice it,
I did have the opportunity.
:36:26
If I had had amazing 20-20 hindsight...
:36:29
...I had the opportunity to stop what
occurred that night. I couId have.
:36:34
I should have Known these guys
shouldn't be talKing to him.
:36:37
I shouIdn't have had my head down...
:36:39
...whiIe I was washing dishes
for those 20 seconds.
:36:41
AII those IittIe things I couId've done,
and I couId've stopped this.
:36:46
So what the heII was I thinking?
:36:53
And I Keep seeing that picture in my head...
:36:55
...of when I found him.
:36:58
And it is not pleasant whatsoever.