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No matter how you dice it,
I did have the opportunity.
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If I had had amazing 20-20 hindsight...
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...I had the opportunity to stop what
occurred that night. I couId have.
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I should have Known these guys
shouldn't be talKing to him.
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I shouIdn't have had my head down...
:36:39
...whiIe I was washing dishes
for those 20 seconds.
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AII those IittIe things I couId've done,
and I couId've stopped this.
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So what the heII was I thinking?
:36:53
And I Keep seeing that picture in my head...
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...of when I found him.
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And it is not pleasant whatsoever.
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I wanna get it out. I don't want it in there.
:37:05
That's a big part of it for me,
having to see that picture...
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...in my head. I just don't want it in there.
:37:18
Matthew Shepard's
the first gay person I ever saw.
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It's Kind of unbelievable to me that
I was the person that found him...
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...because the big question
with my religion is:
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Why did God want me to find him?
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''Let your light shine
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''In the darKness
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''Before the dawn
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''No more sorrow
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''In the nighttime
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''let it shine
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''Oh, lord, Iet it shine''