1:34:02
That's okay,
I just have to heat up this.
1:34:05
So I still don't understand
1:34:06
why you had to go to the restaurant
in your condition...
1:34:08
I told you I thought
I was feeling better.
1:34:10
A bad case of anaemia isn't something
you should take lightly. You should rest.
1:34:14
Yes, listen to Nurse Ann, Ann.
1:34:20
And you know what?
1:34:23
I think you could go wash your hands,
'cause this is ready.
1:34:25
Go wash up, girls.
1:34:31
-Don...
-Yeah?
1:34:32
-You too.
-All right, yes ma'am.
1:34:37
You pray that this will be
your life without you...
1:34:39
you pray that the girls
will love this woman
1:34:42
who has the same name as you,
1:34:44
and that your husband
will end up loving her too,
1:34:47
and that they can live in the house
next door, and the girls can play
1:34:49
doll houses in the trailer,
and barely remember their mother
1:34:52
who used to sleep during the day,
and take them on raft rides in bed.
1:34:56
You pray that they will have moments
of happiness so intense
1:35:00
that all of their problems
will seem insignificant in comparison.
1:35:04
You don't know who or what
you're praying to, but you pray.
1:35:09
You don't even regret the life
that you're not gonna have,
1:35:12
because by then
you'll be dead,
1:35:15
and the dead don't feel anything,
1:35:17
not even regret.
1:35:28
My darling Lee,
1:35:31
I guess by the time you get this tape
you'll know that I'm dead
1:35:36
and, well, all that...
1:35:39
Maybe you're angry with me,
or hurt or sad or upset
1:35:43
or maybe you're all of it together.
1:35:47
I just want you to know
that I fell in love with you.
1:35:51
I didn't dare tell you 'cause
1:35:54
I thought you kind of knew,
1:35:57
and I didn't realize
I had so little time.