:28:01
You know, liberate yourself from desire
:28:02
and you'll find that you already
have everything you need.
:28:05
Yeah, but I feel really
alive when I want
:28:07
something more than
just basic survival needs.
:28:09
I mean, wanting whether it's...
intimacy with another person,
:28:12
or a new pair of shoes,
is kind of beautiful...
:28:14
I like that we have those
ever-renewing desires.
:28:18
Well, maybe it's just
a sense of entitlement.
:28:20
You know, like whenever
you feel like you
:28:21
deserve that new pair
of shoes, you know.
:28:24
It's ok to want things as long as
you don't get pissed off
:28:26
if you don't get them.
:28:27
- Yeah.
- Right, life's hard.
:28:29
It's suppose to be.
:28:30
If we didn't suffer, we wouldn't
learn a thing, you know?
:28:35
So, what? Are you a Buddhist
or something?
:28:38
No.
:28:38
No? Why not?
:28:41
I don't know, I...
:28:42
Same reason I don't consider
myself anything, really.
:28:46
Yeah, I know. I decided
a long time ago that
:28:48
I was gonna to be open to everything,
:28:49
but, not buy into any
one-and-only belief system.
:28:54
I went to this...
:28:55
trapist monastery,
a couple of years ago.
:28:57
Trapist?
:28:58
Yeah, they're Catholics,
Cistercians.
:29:02
Why did you do that?
:29:03
Why? I had just been
doing some reading, I guess...
:29:05
I don't know, I thought it'd be cool.
:29:07
Have you ever spent any time
with any monks and nuns?
:29:09
No...
:29:10
It's not really my style.
:29:12
No?
:29:14
I expected them to be all glowering
and stern, but they weren't...
:29:17
they were really quick to laugh,
really easy to be around.
:29:20
Seriously, very attuned to everything.
:29:23
They were just...
:29:24
You know, they weren't
trying to hustle anybody.
:29:26
They're trying to live and die,
in peace with God, you know,
:29:29
or whatever part of them
they feel is eternal.
:29:32
It was just so
refreshing to be around.
:29:34
You know, you realize that most
of the people that you meet
:29:36
are trying to get somewhere better,
:29:38
you know, they're trying
to make a little bit more cash,
:29:40
trying to get a little more respect,
have more people admire them, you know,
:29:44
It's just exhausting!
:29:45
You know, it's exhausting to be
one of those people yourself.
:29:48
I mean, there I... there I am, right,
:29:49
you know, all greedy to be more spiritual,
:29:51
you know, I wanna be a better person.
:29:53
You can't escape!
:29:56
I had this...
:29:57
this boyfriend of mine,
:29:59
many years ago,
that wanted to be a Buddhist, and...