1:24:01
- Dad.
1:24:06
- Come on in.
- I'm sorry I woke you up.
1:24:09
No, I was just reading.
1:24:12
Where have you been?
1:24:15
Everywhere.
1:24:17
Been on sort of a crazy journey
these last couple days.
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You've been avoiding me.
1:24:22
No, I haven't been.
Come on.
1:24:26
Okay, maybe I have been.
1:24:30
I'm sure you can find
lots of things in your life...
1:24:34
that you can be
angry about.
1:24:36
But what I do not understand
is why you're so angry at me.
1:24:40
All I ever wanted was
for everyone to be happy again.
1:24:43
- That's all I ever wanted.
- When were we all ever happy, Dad?
1:24:46
You always say that,
but when was that?
1:24:48
When was this time
that we were all so happy?
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'Cause I don't have it in my memory.
Maybe if I did, I could help steer us back there.
1:24:53
But I just...
1:24:56
You know, you and I need
to work on being okay...
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if that's not
in the cards for us.
1:25:03
Well, we might
have a shot at it...
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if you can forgive yourself
for what you did.
1:25:09
What I did.
What I did.
1:25:12
Okay, let's-let's do it.
Okay, we're here, right? Le-Let's do it!
1:25:16
I'm gonna forgive myself
for what I did. Are you ready?
1:25:18
I was a little boy, and
somebody made a shitty latch.
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That's what I think. That's what
I think about the whole thing, okay?
1:25:24
And I'm not gonna take those drugs anymore.
They left me completely fuckin' numb.
1:25:28
I have felt so fucking numb to everything
I have experienced in my life, okay?
1:25:32
And for that...
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For that, I'm here
to forgive you.
1:25:38
You always said all you wanted was for us
to have whatever it is we wanted.
1:25:42
Maybe what Mom wanted more than
anything was for it to all be over.
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And for me...
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what I want more than anything in the world
is for it to be okay with you...
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for me to feel
something again.
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Even if it's pain.