1:25:03
Well, we might
have a shot at it...
1:25:05
if you can forgive yourself
for what you did.
1:25:09
What I did.
What I did.
1:25:12
Okay, let's-let's do it.
Okay, we're here, right? Le-Let's do it!
1:25:16
I'm gonna forgive myself
for what I did. Are you ready?
1:25:18
I was a little boy, and
somebody made a shitty latch.
1:25:21
That's what I think. That's what
I think about the whole thing, okay?
1:25:24
And I'm not gonna take those drugs anymore.
They left me completely fuckin' numb.
1:25:28
I have felt so fucking numb to everything
I have experienced in my life, okay?
1:25:32
And for that...
1:25:34
For that, I'm here
to forgive you.
1:25:38
You always said all you wanted was for us
to have whatever it is we wanted.
1:25:42
Maybe what Mom wanted more than
anything was for it to all be over.
1:25:48
And for me...
1:25:50
what I want more than anything in the world
is for it to be okay with you...
1:25:54
for me to feel
something again.
1:25:57
Even if it's pain.
1:26:00
Well, you're going against
your doctor's recommendation.
1:26:03
That's a pretty weighty experiment
to take on, don't you think?
1:26:11
This is my life, Dad.
1:26:13
This is it.
1:26:15
I spent 26 years waiting for
something else to start.
1:26:18
So, no, no, I don't think
it's too much to take on...
1:26:20
because it's
everything there is.
1:26:23
I see now
it's all there is.
1:26:29
You and I are going to be okay.
You know that, right?
1:26:38
We may not be as happy as you always
dreamed we would be, but...
1:26:46
for the first time, let's just allow ourselves
to be whatever it is we are.
1:26:53
And that'll be better, okay?
1:26:59
I think that'll be better.