:55:02
I'd been up since sunrise...
:55:04
...my second night in the car.
I was completely lost.
:55:07
I must have walked 10 miles
to a clearing... To your garden.
:55:10
To you, standing there
in all those vegetables.
:55:14
I saw you and pinon trees behind...
:55:17
...and the hill,
and everything completely still.
:55:22
So beautiful...
:55:24
...it was almost unbearable.
It still is.
:55:27
Then later, holding your hand...
:55:30
...I remembered being
at a birthday party...
:55:32
...a children's birthday party...
:55:34
...and my older brother was acting out
me discovering my mother dead.
:55:38
My mother committed suicide,
but maybe she didn't.
:55:42
He was telling this story...
:55:44
...how I'd come home from school
carrying a pyramid...
:55:47
...l'd made out of foam core.
:55:48
And opened the front door
and walked in...
:55:51
...backwards and bumped into her
in the hall. She hung herself.
:55:57
Now I don't think it's true, l...
:55:59
I don't think it's a real memory,
my memory.
:56:01
I think it's just the description
that I heard from my brother.
:56:05
I don't even think foam core
existed back then, Mrs. Groden.
:56:10
I always felt partly responsible,
involved, being the one to find her.
:56:15
But now I don't think I did.
:56:19
I don't think I did.
:56:22
It was like the cornerstone
of my childhood.
:56:25
The event upon which I built
everything else...
:56:27
...and now it's pulled out,
and everything is toppled.
:56:31
The only thing I can hold on
to right now, Mrs. Groden...
:56:35
...the only thing I know to be true...
:56:38
...is my love for you.
:56:42
Mr. Gibbs.
:56:45
- Yes?
- New Mexico is a very powerful place.
:56:50
Often when people first get here,
it's a little overwhelming.