1:02:02
is always the best route
to get them to practice.
1:02:05
I actually had a really long speech
with the kids the other night.
1:02:08
And what I told them was, you know,
they're not my friends.
1:02:12
And I understand that
and never expected them to be, you know.
1:02:14
I mean, they don't even
understand what friendship is.
1:02:16
I know I'm a big fat jerk, all right?
1:02:18
I know. I know I am. I know.
1:02:20
I have to get up and look at myself
in the mirror every day.
1:02:22
I don't see fuckin' Eric Svalgard
in the mirror. I see me.
1:02:27
Okay? But I also know the couple times
I'm trying not to be a big fat jerk...
1:02:31
you kids are horrible, you're evil,
you're manipulative little fucks.
1:02:35
I'm their friend.
1:02:37
And, you know, there's not a kid
in the school who won't...
1:02:39
when the chips are on the table,
choose their peers...
1:02:43
and this sounds weird,
but their parents...
1:02:45
or an easy way out over me.
1:02:48
You know, as much as I do and all that.
You understand, it's just what kids are.
1:02:52
So kids will put the knife right in,
and that's fine.
1:02:55
I mean, if I was sensitive about that,
I'd be in the wrong business.
1:02:59
But, at the same time, I have
a deep affection for many of these kids.
1:03:02
'Cause you can't do this job
without investing yourself in the kids.
1:03:06
Christ.
1:03:14
It has to be on a 45-degree angle
pointing in...
1:03:16
'cause we have square tips here.
1:03:19
But they come in other fashions.
1:03:22
I feel I felt more solace
and more contention in music...
1:03:25
in the music I chose
to listen to...
1:03:27
not the music Paul felt I should
and that Paul felt I should learn.
1:03:31
Though learning it helped me, to some
extent, to become a better musician...
1:03:36
which is, I suppose,
the underlying purpose of it all.
1:03:45
Me and Paul parted ways
on the best possible terms.
1:03:49
I mean, I cried almost
a little bit kind of, but not really...
1:03:52
and I don't wanna talk about it
in that sense.
1:03:55
But Paul was very respectful.
He just approached me...
1:03:58
and he was, like, "Do you wanna be
in Rock School anymore?"