:14:00
Well, that's fair enough.
:14:01
I disapprove of many things
about him.
:14:05
Chiefly, I disapprove of the fact
that he didn't marry my mother.
:14:09
Perhaps if I was legitimate...
:14:13
I have sinned, Lord, but I have
several excellent excuses.
:14:18
With all that, Andre,
you still disapprove?
:14:22
You're not being worthy
of yourself, Pierre.
:14:24
You're not living up to
the best things in yourself.
:14:27
You must be somebody.
:14:29
That's where the puzzle begins.
Be somebody. Be what?
:14:32
Who am I?
Am I the next Count Bezukhov...
:14:35
lord of vast estates
and the fixed positions...
:14:38
fixed responsibilities?
:14:41
Not quite.
:14:42
My father cannot quite acknowledge
that I am his son...
:14:46
but he cannot quite acknowledge
that I am not his son.
:14:50
That makes everybody uncomfortable,
including myself.
:14:53
Well, you must aim at something,
find a beginning.
:14:55
Oh, you're right.
Don't think I don't agree with you.
:14:59
Each morning I wake up,
I'm disgusted with myself...
:15:02
with what I did the night before.
:15:05
I tell myself today...
a change.
:15:09
If my headache is bad enough,
I say...
:15:11
"Pierre, today you must
take steps to become a saint. "
:15:15
I say, I'll drop in at the club
and watch the card playing.
:15:19
Just order a glass of water...
:15:21
to prove to myself how marvelously
I resist temptation.
:15:25
Then someone comes along
and says...
:15:28
"Just one vodka, Pierre. "
:15:31
Next morning my headache is worse,
my pockets are emptier.
:15:34
There must be something
you wanna do.
:15:37
Of course.
I wanna discover.
:15:39
- Discover what?
- Everything.
:15:41
I want to discover why I know what's
right and still do what's wrong.
:15:46
I wanna discover what happiness is...
:15:49
and what value there is
in suffering.
:15:51
I wanna discover
why men go to war...
:15:54
and what they really say...
:15:57
deep in their hearts
when they pray to God.