:47:00
a softer, more caring,
compassionate person
:47:05
than he allowed himself
to be to most people.
:47:16
l can remember
from the Dave Mustaine days,
:47:19
l mean, when him and Dave Mustaine...
:47:22
These guys, they started, like,
right away with their big, you know,
:47:26
chest-beating and their mannerisms.
:47:29
And the whole thing was very much
about this kind of, like, macho.
:47:33
And it was just, like,
l couldn't deal with that stuff.
:47:35
And looking back on, what,
18, 19 years ago,
:47:39
l mean, I just feIt so alienated
because it was just so far removed
:47:44
from the upbringing
that I come from.
:47:47
Well, here's to you, my friends.
:47:50
But then, at the same time,
I'm starting to realizing now
:47:55
that the sort of depressive things
that show up as a resuIt
:47:59
of the alcohol and stuff like that,
it was just very difficuIt for him
:48:03
- to communicate from the heart...
- You want some or not?
:48:06
...and not hide behind
a lot of these different fronts.
:48:10
Whether it's alcohol that gives him
a false sense of strength,
:48:14
or "the frontman in Metallica," or, you
know, macho bullshit and all that stuff.
:48:22
All right, now you guys are drunk
and I'm drunk.
:48:25
Now this is the fun part, man.
:48:28
l want to help him,
l want to be there for him,
:48:31
and I want to do the best I can to
make him the best person that he can be.
:48:38
So I don't know how the fuck
it's gonna play out.